jon mark

sooo, forgive me for venting, but this is my blog…ok…this week month has just been WAY too hectic for my liking…it just seems like all i get done doing is calling people, texting people, scheduling things, running here and there and then waking up to do it all over again…on top of that kasey had a class in indianapolis and then this weekend she is heading to louisville for a conference…and that doesn’t even include the madness that i have been dealing with at work…it’s to the point where i…

can’t even think straight!!!

earlier this week i received a text from one of my closest friends…he and his wife have been trying to start a family for quite some time…i would say it’s been at least three years now…and recently they found out that they were expecting!!! kasey and i have been so pumped for them, you would think we were expecting (we’re NOT)…but the text i received said this, “2 hearbeats! still early but all looks good so far!”…

i get this text in the midst of drama at work and dealing with a young mother who has neglected her 4 month old child, so she could get drunk and go buy some cigarettes… AHHH!@#*#&@*!&*!&*!&!!!!#*#*@

it didn’t hit me until about five or six hours later that THEY ARE HAVING TWINS!!! here i thought it meant that they just heard the babies heart beat twice or something…this is hard evidence that i…

can’t even think straight!!!

then this morning i went to call someone about a meeting for next week…but i think i already called him and told him that i was not able to attend, due to another meeting…or did i??? i have no flippin clue!!!

sooo, all this to say that i’m excited about this weekends service…i am going to be COMPLETELY relying on God to get me through and on the Holy Spirit to guide me…which means He is going to do something pretty stinkin amazing…because that’s what He does…i was reading about it this morning…

please pray for me as i lead this weekend because i…

can’t even think straight!!!

sooo, this song has now hit the airwaves like never before…you can read this article to get more info if you want…but the basics are that the author of the song “Healer” made up the whole story of his terminal cancer…WOW…that’s kind of hard to swallow…but should it be???

should we be surprised when people mess up…should it be so devastating when christians stumble…or at least when we find out they have stumbled??? how many times do i stumble and it goes unnoticed by the world around me??? we are all human…we all have a battle within us between our sinful nature and the Spirit within us…we are going to stumble…even fall…

for me, i’m not going to try and come up with a reason as to why this happened or what should happen now…the song is in our set for this sunday and it’s going to stay there…what has happened has no bearing on the lyrics of this song and the truth they contain…the mistakes we make have no bearing on the truth that is contained in God’s word…thank You Lord!!!

check out this post and this post to see other perspectives given…i’m sure there will be more to come for those who care to follow and read the story…or we can trust in God and pray that He will bring the healing that is needed…

Healer…take two?!?

sooo, i’ve still been thinking about the post from monday…i was asked to go and play in another softball tournament next week, which is not going to happen…and it has made me continue to think about things…and in addition to that i’m working through the book of john still and that kind of added to what i was thinking…

john 3:17…often overlooked due to the verse directly before it…has a ton to say about God and tells why He sent His Son to earth…to SAVE sinners…He went without His Son by His side for 33 years…to SAVE the very people that would put Him to death…

now i know that there was still communication between them…and i know that He’s God and was still able to “be with” His Son whenever He so chose…but what about the three days immediately following Christ’s death??? He willing sent His Son…willing allowed His Son to be our sin sacrifice…willing went that time without His Son…to SAVE sinners…to have a personal relationship with me…with you…

i can not begin to imagine how much that hurt him…the pain and agony that He was feeling is beyond anything that i could comprehend…for me…for you…

what do you think???

a day without my child…take two…

sooo, this past weekend i was asked to fill in for a softball team as they played up in a tournament…they had a couple of guys who were not able to make it and wanted to know if i could help them out…it was kind of last second and we had already made plans to go take molly to the zoo…i wasn’t real sure what to do…on one hand i really wanted to play ball!!! on the other hand i wanted to be there when molly got to see all the monkeys that she loves to read about and play with at home…

after discussing it with kasey and seeing who all was going to the zoo…it appeared as though i was going to be the only father there…the rest were going to be mother’s and daughters…and the team “needed” me…so i went to the softball tournament…

it was an extremely long day…we drove three hours…played five softball games…then drove three hours back…but that wasn’t the worst part…i didn’t get to see molly at all…she was asleep when i left at 6:30am and then again when i returned home at 9:40pm…i was really upset that i did not get to see her smile and say “hi”…i wasn’t able to hear her call me “dada” or call for the “kitty”…i wasn’t able to see her determination as she climbs up on the furniture…or her contentment as she drank her “baba”…i was really down…

God really challenged me during my ride home…i was listening to the sunday morning worship set on my ipod and watching the amazing colors of the sky as we were driving…and God gave me this nudge about how He feels when i don’t spend time with Him…OUCH!!! that’s happened a few times in my life, ok in the last week…i let the busyness of life take over and i just “can’t” work in my time with Him…and if i miss molly that much, think of how much more God misses His time with His children?!?

i don’t know if this is something you can identify with or not…it’s just something that God was teaching me this weekend as i experienced…

a day without my child…