sooo, this past weekend i was asked to fill in for a softball team as they played up in a tournament…they had a couple of guys who were not able to make it and wanted to know if i could help them out…it was kind of last second and we had already made plans to go take molly to the zoo…i wasn’t real sure what to do…on one hand i really wanted to play ball!!! on the other hand i wanted to be there when molly got to see all the monkeys that she loves to read about and play with at home…
after discussing it with kasey and seeing who all was going to the zoo…it appeared as though i was going to be the only father there…the rest were going to be mother’s and daughters…and the team “needed” me…so i went to the softball tournament…
it was an extremely long day…we drove three hours…played five softball games…then drove three hours back…but that wasn’t the worst part…i didn’t get to see molly at all…she was asleep when i left at 6:30am and then again when i returned home at 9:40pm…i was really upset that i did not get to see her smile and say “hi”…i wasn’t able to hear her call me “dada” or call for the “kitty”…i wasn’t able to see her determination as she climbs up on the furniture…or her contentment as she drank her “baba”…i was really down…
God really challenged me during my ride home…i was listening to the sunday morning worship set on my ipod and watching the amazing colors of the sky as we were driving…and God gave me this nudge about how He feels when i don’t spend time with Him…OUCH!!! that’s happened a few times in my life, ok in the last week…i let the busyness of life take over and i just “can’t” work in my time with Him…and if i miss molly that much, think of how much more God misses His time with His children?!?
i don’t know if this is something you can identify with or not…it’s just something that God was teaching me this weekend as i experienced…
a day without my child…
