all my life i’ve heard about how much God loves me…i grew up in church and in a christian home…or as some may put it, i lived in a hole…and i know that this is true! i can see all through my life where God has protected me…provided for me…blessed me more than i could ever imagine. these things would not be true if God did not love me.
then i can look beyond that and see that God gave His only Son…the best that He had…to pay the price for me…to give His life, so that i could have life…that just blows my mind, it always has! especially when i consider that He did this for me, before i got my crudd together…He did this before i asked Him too…before i came to Him.
but i have never truely understood what all God felt when He did this…and i never really will…but last night i was hit with another angle on what God was feeling when He allowed men to crucify His Son…when Christ cried out for help, for some other way…
i was giving molly a bath last night and we were playing and singing…i started singing a song that we are going to do at church this weekend…it has a cool little echo as i’m sitting on the edge of the tub…she just stopped playing with the bubbles and the toys…she looked right at me and smiled with the goofiest looking teeth i’ve ever seen…she wrinkled up that nose…in an instant my little daughter had my heart wrapped around her finger…
it just hit me…when Christ died as a man…He was not always a man, He was a baby boy at one point…i’m confident that Christ had a goofy little smile as a baby boy(not as cute as molly’s, just ask her grandpa!)…there were many memories of Christ growing up that God had to look back on, as Christ was being beating, as He was dying…
i couldn’t do that with molly…just being honest…you are going to have to take me before i could sit and watch something like that happen to my little girl…and He did this because of His love for me???
sooooooooooo the song i was singing to her…”amazed”…by jared anderson…and i was beginning to sing the bridge to the song…
“how deep, how wide, how great, is Your love for me!”
this comes from ephesians 3:14-20…
14For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. 20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (NIV)
